Today, everything went kind of smoothly? I guess? Haha.
As usual, he's late for the date again.. π & half of the time, he's busy w his what's app chat, which made me kind of insecure. (Partly it's because person m is in the what's app grp; she's boy ex love & she hates me to the core, even insulted me on her personal tumblr twice) But the movies & dinner were good! Esp despicable me & White House down. :) after which, boy sent me home, which made me felt a lil loved :)
But after the date, things went terribly wrong.. The very first thing when he did when he reaches home is to watch "live stream" of dk what game.. Well, he did try to explain to me, but it just didn't catch my attention. & what's the first thing I did? Collage the photos we took earlier on.. See the difference? & now..? He hadn't reply me since 1h30min ago.. But the ironic thing is, he appeared online in whatsapp minutes ago.. (Must be occupied by his live stream game & whatsapp chat again..) Tbh, I really really don't like the fact that the whatsapp chat grp is getting so much attention. It made me feel less important.. like way insignificant. That's why whenever boy said I'm important to him, I always asked him to repeat himself.. I needed it to boost my confidence level..
Little things do matter.. & they are often the reasons why things ain't perfect.. I'm tired of overthinking.. Fanciful words aint doing the job. Please do smth to give me the assurance I need.. Cause.. If this were to carry on.. I'm afraid that we might not last as long as you thought..
Quote from the dream makers "ζζιθ¦δ½ ηζΆε，δ½ ε¨εͺι？ζιθ¦ηζ―δΈδΈͺζεΎη±ζηδΊΊ＂
-forcethesmile :)
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